Juno. Not the City In Alaska,Not the Movie, Not the Goddess, the Girl.

So by now I'm sure everyone has seen Juno, it's won a million awards and was written by an ex-stripper that doesn't use her real name.

I'm not going to talk about what happends, because even without seeing the movie people know what happends. A Teen girl gets pregnant and decides to keep it.

I'm going to talk about Juno growing up in the movie, no a birthday doesn't pass and you don't see her older more than 9mos. She ends up growing as a person besides the roundness, in the beginning she is just a kid that got pregnant. You see her grow up when she stops using the the childish-teen vocabulary and starts to think things out more.
During the duration of the movie she develops a friend in someone much older, and married. She sees nothing wrong with it because she says "pssh I can have friends that are married!" not knowing at 16 that what she was really doing was flirting. Later she gets a harsh awakening when the man says hes going to leave his wife and move to an apartment in the city. The only reason she wanted to get to know him is so would be comforted with the fact that the baby is going to a good family. At that point you see something change in her, she asks if its her fault that he was going to leave his wife. The next scene is Juno leaving a note for the wife saying if the wife is still in then so is she...


Nievity
The same goes for real life, for some people something tramatic has to happen in order for them to tell the difference between flirting and not flirting. Others just grow out of it, and in some cases at the time of your life where you would have learned the difference between when to flirt and then not to flirt, sometimes something tramatic happends and it actuallyjust leaves you in that mind state for the rest of your life without you even being aware.
However by the time you get out of high school you should have learned whatever lesson you would have needed to learn to understand whats right and whats wrong. Four years is all it takes, and in some cases it takes longer... and sometimes it just never happends. All the drama that happends in high school is everyone learning in their own way mixed with hormones going fucking crazy. It's not even just flirting its everything, you have to learn judgement, thats why by the times you're 18 years old you can get piercings and tattoos all you want, because your brain is supposed to be developed enough for you to say I do or don't want that.

I really wish some people could have actually learned that lesson and be able to tell the difference between right and wrong and what they are doing.

Tear Me Apart And Leave Me Alone.

So it's happening agian. that wonderful rush and thrill that is finding another human that has a brain in their head. However sometimes you can be wrong you can actually be very wrong about a person and not really know it until a while later. Or maybe it's not even that you don't know maybe its more like you don't want to let yourself know until awhile later. Using yourself as a sort of cushioning, everyone does it. I love the feeling of someone knew. I love meeting new people who doesn't? I just hate the let down. It's kind of sad in the end really. I really wish that everyone would just be as fun as they were in the begining as they are in the end... and in that case there would be no end, instead you'd have a lifetime friend.

SILENCE.
Is amazing. It can say a mouth full without a sound. It can make a situation more akward, and make you want to die. OR it can brighten up a day and say everything you ever wanted without one peep. At the moment I'm sitting in the silence that makes a minute last for 5days or longer. The shitty feeling, the weirdness.... its there alright, the only thing thats even filling the void at the moment is the sound of a tv thats not really being watched and the keyboard that is only being typed on because i don't know what to say. Talk about akward!

Loosing My Mind

It's been a long ass time since I last wrote.... and it seems to me that I only write when something is borthering me... which is once again the reason for this ranting....

I thought that when you grew up all the shit from childhood would just go away... I really wish I could just start from scratch. I basically hate all the people that are consistant in my life from childhood. The only reason that these few are so damn consistant is to make my life a living hell.... and at the moment it seems like that is going smashingly for them. I really wish I could just go to school far away and be gone from all this crap. I want to know NO ONE where I go and make new friends. I just want a do-over... I really wish real life were more like video games sometimes... restart... and everything is perfect again.

When I was about 13 I got in a lot of arguements with the girls in my little 8th grade posse... What a load of shit! These girls come back after YEARS to make me want to fucking kill them. I really fucking hate girls for this reason. Girls are so reatrdedly pitty! I want them to keep their mouths shut, keep their tails in between their legs and stay out of my way! AND secrectly I hope they die.... no seriously! I have so much venom, and its just for their pretty little selves. I want them to go back from where they came from.... this is my state....and I really don't want them in it.

Time for December...

Good afternoon, because I'm sure it's afternoon somewhere...
It's not December and if you haven't noticed I've acomplished crap since I last wrote. I haven't done a thing. I think I have put myself in a rut. I want to go back to school but I don't have the money and time.... what the fuck! I feel at odds with the world because I haven't got as many friends as I once thought I did. I suppose you realize who is and who isn't really a friend when no one is around. The only ones that sick with you are really there for a reason, the ones that come and go... well, they... they just need to get the fuck out of your life anyway. At the same time you can't help but think, why isn't my phone ringing? It's almost christmas break and no one has even checked on me... What gives? The friends I make now aren't really down to be friends which is a fucking pain in the ass! I JUST want friends I just want someone to play video games with and laugh with and share stupid jokes with.... But at the same time I don't want to be around complete dumbass' and I don't want to be around people who have their heads up their ass and love talking about themselves.

My job. MY JOB SUCKS! I hate everyone at my job. I could give you a run down on each person but that would take too long. Maybe on a later date I'll explain to you each individual, however that isn't today. Recently we got a new boss, on November 1st to be precise. AND he is a dick. He makes me fucking insane! I AM NOT supposed to do all the checking and credit cards and all accounting crap... I'm not paid enough for that shit... I get angry twits on the phone that like to argue with me. I DON'T GET PAID ENOUGH FOR MY SHITTY JOB! ....and I hate people who are kiss asses.... they should seriously get their heads unlodged from my boss' ass.... its fucking annoying. I by the way, am the only one who doesn't want to work there anymore.

My job has made me bitter. The lack of friends and human contact has made me bitter. and the christmas season has made me bitter.

Fuck this crap!

Apparently I'm Still Alive

I haven't written anything in a while. It's not because I don't want to its just because I haven't had the time really.

HOWEVER I have come up with a solution!!!

Since it's fall, and I love fall...only because it's a good season to bake in...
I WILL BAKE! and then I will post pictures on this lovely blogging thing I've started.

...What do you think?
...well, I think it's a good idea.

So here we go, today I will bake something and take a picture and post it the next day...It'll be ...food blogging...'ya know along with the other parts of my life. Everyones life has food in it, so this will be my reason to keep up with my writing and baking!

HOLLA!!! ^.^
Obviously I'm excited,so you should be too! Now you will be able to hear from me on a some-what regular basis. Score! Mark one in the win collum for me.

Trink.

lets pretend

i wish i was happier, i wish my smile wasn't false... and i wish that when i'm left on my own that i didnt feel so empty. lets pretend i'm happy, because i am not. not at all. not even a little.

Just Me...

I'm one of those people that looks under a cap once you twist it off a bottle. I know it may not, and usually doesn't say anything, but I do it anyway.

I like to walk on gravel, because the crunch makes me smile.

I like the way it feels to turn the pages of a thinly leafed book, and I like the way old ones look. How many different stories can they tell that aren't already written down?