Juno. Not the City In Alaska,Not the Movie, Not the Goddess, the Girl.

So by now I'm sure everyone has seen Juno, it's won a million awards and was written by an ex-stripper that doesn't use her real name.

I'm not going to talk about what happends, because even without seeing the movie people know what happends. A Teen girl gets pregnant and decides to keep it.

I'm going to talk about Juno growing up in the movie, no a birthday doesn't pass and you don't see her older more than 9mos. She ends up growing as a person besides the roundness, in the beginning she is just a kid that got pregnant. You see her grow up when she stops using the the childish-teen vocabulary and starts to think things out more.
During the duration of the movie she develops a friend in someone much older, and married. She sees nothing wrong with it because she says "pssh I can have friends that are married!" not knowing at 16 that what she was really doing was flirting. Later she gets a harsh awakening when the man says hes going to leave his wife and move to an apartment in the city. The only reason she wanted to get to know him is so would be comforted with the fact that the baby is going to a good family. At that point you see something change in her, she asks if its her fault that he was going to leave his wife. The next scene is Juno leaving a note for the wife saying if the wife is still in then so is she...


Nievity
The same goes for real life, for some people something tramatic has to happen in order for them to tell the difference between flirting and not flirting. Others just grow out of it, and in some cases at the time of your life where you would have learned the difference between when to flirt and then not to flirt, sometimes something tramatic happends and it actuallyjust leaves you in that mind state for the rest of your life without you even being aware.
However by the time you get out of high school you should have learned whatever lesson you would have needed to learn to understand whats right and whats wrong. Four years is all it takes, and in some cases it takes longer... and sometimes it just never happends. All the drama that happends in high school is everyone learning in their own way mixed with hormones going fucking crazy. It's not even just flirting its everything, you have to learn judgement, thats why by the times you're 18 years old you can get piercings and tattoos all you want, because your brain is supposed to be developed enough for you to say I do or don't want that.

I really wish some people could have actually learned that lesson and be able to tell the difference between right and wrong and what they are doing.

Tear Me Apart And Leave Me Alone.

So it's happening agian. that wonderful rush and thrill that is finding another human that has a brain in their head. However sometimes you can be wrong you can actually be very wrong about a person and not really know it until a while later. Or maybe it's not even that you don't know maybe its more like you don't want to let yourself know until awhile later. Using yourself as a sort of cushioning, everyone does it. I love the feeling of someone knew. I love meeting new people who doesn't? I just hate the let down. It's kind of sad in the end really. I really wish that everyone would just be as fun as they were in the begining as they are in the end... and in that case there would be no end, instead you'd have a lifetime friend.

SILENCE.
Is amazing. It can say a mouth full without a sound. It can make a situation more akward, and make you want to die. OR it can brighten up a day and say everything you ever wanted without one peep. At the moment I'm sitting in the silence that makes a minute last for 5days or longer. The shitty feeling, the weirdness.... its there alright, the only thing thats even filling the void at the moment is the sound of a tv thats not really being watched and the keyboard that is only being typed on because i don't know what to say. Talk about akward!

Loosing My Mind

It's been a long ass time since I last wrote.... and it seems to me that I only write when something is borthering me... which is once again the reason for this ranting....

I thought that when you grew up all the shit from childhood would just go away... I really wish I could just start from scratch. I basically hate all the people that are consistant in my life from childhood. The only reason that these few are so damn consistant is to make my life a living hell.... and at the moment it seems like that is going smashingly for them. I really wish I could just go to school far away and be gone from all this crap. I want to know NO ONE where I go and make new friends. I just want a do-over... I really wish real life were more like video games sometimes... restart... and everything is perfect again.

When I was about 13 I got in a lot of arguements with the girls in my little 8th grade posse... What a load of shit! These girls come back after YEARS to make me want to fucking kill them. I really fucking hate girls for this reason. Girls are so reatrdedly pitty! I want them to keep their mouths shut, keep their tails in between their legs and stay out of my way! AND secrectly I hope they die.... no seriously! I have so much venom, and its just for their pretty little selves. I want them to go back from where they came from.... this is my state....and I really don't want them in it.